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This guy has been a blessing for me..he’s young..very young..in his teenage year..but how I admire him for his heart for the Lord..How passionate he lives and gave all the glory for the One who saves him..I knew him for the past 4 yrs in my church and how wonderful fellowship we had in our worship team together..I thank God for putting these wonderful people in my life..

Dave is leaving us for a year study abroad program in Italy and even though a year seems a short time, I miss him already.. but he said, don’t be sad but rejoice for me..for the Lord has plans for each everyone of us, and I’m sure He is..by giving him a great chance going to Italy…Be the light wherever you go Dave..Lord Bless u always..

Guys,

I don’t know how to express my heart, how grateful and blessed I am to have friends like you all..Yesterday at my B-day, you all made me feel that I’m " someone" for you, eventhough maybe we are separated by thousands miles away, but we keep the distance short by heart.

It was really my unforgettable B-day, though it wasn’t a big celebration party, but I know that you guys care so much about me.
It started early in the morning,I woke up 5 am, get ready for work -yup, I still insist working on my Bday…hahahha…I had no better plan to do-, and mycell already fulled up with all messages from my friends, which some I lost numbers coz my old cell died. It surprised me when I found out all" unusual" friends that missing all these years,and they sent me sms.
Even in my work place, some customers joined with my co-wo singing B-day song for me..I was so touched…

My mom,Alfandy and I went to Japanese restaurant, had lunch together to celebrate it. They bought a B-day cake for me, but I was too embarassed to have it in front of people at restaurant, so then we agree just keep it at home.

It wasn’t stop there.
Another surprise waited me at home,when Alfandy showed up at my place with  Clara,a lady who is a chuch member and she’s been kind to me for all these years-, and she shouted" SURPRISE!!!!!"- trust me, she have a big mouth enough to be heard 2 block away.

God..I was so overwhelmed with happiness…( buat Fandy: Dude, I have to give a button appreciation award for being event organizer! hahah)

Other my worship teams members also sent me messages..

There was no other word to say thank you enough..
Nor money, gifts or party can buy those happiness that we find out from truly friends and family who love us unconditionally…

hey guys..

baru gue baca blog khat2 ttg nasib kita sing sama…heraaan deh…kok mesti mirip2 gitu…nggak cuman sekali dua kali doang, tapi berkali2!! It’s amazing…I’m sure that He has something in store for us, khat..

Kemaren gue terima surat pernyataan dari Temple Univ ttg aplikasi gue ketolak alias gue nggak bisa jadi student disitu. Lemes deh …gak percaya sih..Gue planning mo transfer fall 2007 kesitu krn emang Temple terkenal bagus utk art programnya..Jadi 2 bulan sebelom deadline, gue dah persiapin bikin portfolio and berkas2 yg diperlukan..Tapi emang Tuhan punya rencana lain yg lebih baik buat gue…sebagaimana mungkin kita berusaha tapi bukan jalan kita, tetap nggak isa kita meraihnya…

Rek, kalo dipikir secara logika, nggak masuk akal…habisnya, my GPA( atau IP-) berturut2 : 4 ( bukan pamer sih). Semua design and drawing artwork gue mostly "A"..     so what is the requirements that I don’t meet from all those?
Bener, pertama gue shock and surprise..habis setahuku, masuk ke Temple bukannya "super susah"…bisa dibilang Temple itu school utk yg menengah keatas lah utk kemampuan studentnya, bukan yg top peringkat atas kayak Rhode Island School of Design( semacam Yale-nya design di east coast sini).Jadi gue pretty much sure, kalo kemampuan gue bisa lulus, kalaupun nggak masuk beasiswa, tapi 99% yakin keterima.

But God has another plans…maybe He know what my motives and my shortcoming..also my pride…mungkin gue yg takabur and sombong, ngerasa kalo gue bisa melakukan ini semua tanpa tanya Dia, apa yg Dia mau dari gue..
and He did it!!
He just cut down everything no matter how much efforts that I put for this school…Dari pertama proses aplikasinya banyak bermasalah…dari transcripku yg ilang di mail nggak tau kemana…trus.file portfolioku yg nggak bisa dibuka 2 hari sebelom deadline so I had to do all over again…trus minta transcript asli dari Petra Univ 5 hari sebelum deadline…pokoknya nggak mulus and made me so frustrated!

I guess He showed me pretty much clear about His decision in my life. but I just ignore Him and thought that I can handle it by myself.

He got me there!

Anyway…tentu aja kecewa and feeling down are the natural things that I felt as human being with full of expectation for this…I’ve been work out of my butt for this, but yet,I failed.

Tuhan kasih gue pelajaran jitu di situasi ini…without Him, I’m nothing…

Gue inget kisah bible ttg Joseph( Yusuf) yg lagi dicobai diMesir…dari dijual oleh saudara2nya sendiri jadi budak di Mesir sampai akhirnya diangkat jadi orang kedua setelah Pharaoh, and he said that God working from all of his trial become his victory. What an encouragement!
Another story, Queen Esther, dibawa utk jadi selir raja sampai dpt favor in King’s eyes and save her people.

Khat2…never give up our dreams…bring them in prayer, because He give us this desires in out heart…according His purposes..

hey friends,

Tadi siang gue lunch sambil mikir2 gini…sebenernya, apa sih yg bikin amrik ini jadi "impian" semua orang…sampe, jgn ditanya deh…temen2 gue sendiri yg ngotot mo imigrant ke amrik, mati2an pake segala cara yg dihalalkan…( hehhehe, siapa ya yg ngerasa? hmm…:)  ).
Gue sendiri bulan mei ntar bakalan tahun ketujuh gue diamrik…kalo ditanya dulu apa tujuan gue hijrah kesini? Jujur aja….cari dolar!
back then, I was really persuade the glamourous dream that better life await me here!( sampe "membutakan diri", nggak pa2 deh kerja kuli sing penting dpt duit, plus cita2 muluk: kirim duit ortu, buat modal usaha, beli rumah, de el el).

Emang sih, siapa yg nggak ngiler.ituuu lho kayak pilem2 hollywood,Bang, yg ada apartemen di gedung bertingkat kayak di " Friends",atau ketemu bule bermata biru( emang kelereng? he..) kayak Brad Pitt atau Kang Nu-nu( Keanu, maksudnya)…siapa yg nggak mau oi…

But, tell you the truth, Amrik itu nggak seheboh yg kita bayangkan kok..
bukannya gue nggak bersyukur kalo gue bisa hijrah and sekolah disini( itu prosesnya, udah deh, pake perjuangan hidup mati kalo gue bilang) but, bener pepatah bilang: RUMPUT TETANGGA SELALU LEBIH HIJAU…
kita selalu terbius ama iming2 dunia glamor nan palsu disini..
orang2 indo yg gue tau,kerja mati2an scr illegal, bisa2 overtime 14 jam sehari 7 hari seminggu karena ngejar duit. itupun kalo dari segi usia, mereka banyak yg nggak muda lagi…bisa kebayang nggak kalo diforsir kerja (berdiri lho) selama itu, gimana nggak jebol tubuh kita.
Kalo mo bilang soal duit, sebenernya apa yg kita dpt( yg tentunya bunyi dolar selalu di rupiahkan, bisa bikin kita berdecak "wowww") ya habis juga buat biaya hidup, wong mereka digaji dgn " low wages salary".

Udah gitu, sama2 dinegara orang bukannya saling kompak and membantu, hebatnya orang indo disini, tuh saling sikut sana sini and sirik2an..Nah lho!
Gosip…nomer satu…misal si A cerita ke B, nyampenya ke si C, udah ada 3 versi..hehhehe hebat nggak? bakal nulis telenovela deh…
tentu aja yg bahan obrolan: " eh , elo kerja dimana…ooo, nggak heran deh kalo si Anu dpt naik gaji, wong dia ada main ama supervisornya"

Kasus perselingkuhan, jadi berita biasa disini…mo tiru2 Hollywood ceritanya…dateng bareng suami istri, sampe diamrik beberapa bulan, udah punya pacar baru  masing2….juga bukan rahasia lagi kalo cewek2 indo yg mengidolakan bule kayak dewa..sampe bule tua, suami orang and melarat pun disikat…yg penting bule…hiiii…padahal kalo mo omong, bule tuh nggak ada bedanya ama kita…jgn anggap mereka" lebih segalanya" dari kita..
Kalo soal generousity, kayaknya kita orang asia lebih dari mereka…mereka pelit loh,Rek…kalo kita misal nih, pigi bareng ama temen lama/sahabat…kadang kita udah nawarin deh bayarin makan bareng…sedangkan para bule itu, utk traktir kopi aja mereka pikir2 100 kali….padahal pendapatan mereka tuh 10 x lipat pendapatan kita2 yg kerja buruh..
Juga mereka lebih individualis..ada bagus ada juga nggaknya…bagusnya sih, mereka menghormati privasi orang( apalagi utk orang2 artis yg sukanya bengong sendiri kayak gue hehhehe)…kalo kita ditanya soal pacar and kita nggak mau jawab, mereka pasti understand kalo itu menyangkut privasi…bandingkan ama orang2 indo yg suka mekso nanya masalah begituan, atau malah dibikn lelucon( yg nggak lucu). Nggak bagusnya, bule2 itu lebih menderita kesepian dari kita2 yg selalu family oriented and around friends…
Survey membuktikan( kayak kuis apa tuh…family 100 ya, jaman doeloe) kalo orang amrik itu paling punya temen deket 1 doang/person…sedih nggak…tentu aja mereka ketemu orang ditempat kerja-sekolah-dll, tapi just say hi and bye…ataupun kalo chit chat, ya cuman basa basi doang..

Penyakit kesepian itu juga menghinggapi orang2 indo disini….dgn jam kerja yg begitu, mereka nggak punya kehidupan lain selain lingkup kerja and rumah.
Pelariannya? macem2…dari yg sok gaul dgn clubbing2, atau shopping…atau cari gacoan biar ada yg mijetin pulang kerja sampe yg ke jalur yg bener alias cari Tuhan disemua ini…gereja indo berkembang pesat disini..

Sebenernya, rek..hidup dimana2 sama aja….mungkin amrik ini bolehlah disebut negara super power…emang sih disini sistem pemerintahan teratur and tingkat kemakmuran rakyatnya tinggi, tapi bukan berarti mereka lebih segala2nya dari kita orang2 indo…kalo dibilang soal" otak", orang2 indo lebih pinter kok…mereka( orang amrik tuh) udah terlena atau dimanja ama kemudahan fasilitas yg tersedia disini…makanya, banyak generasi mudanya sing muales and taunya hura2 doang( hahha, di indo juga banyak ya kalo omongin yg ini)…Kerjaan sing gampang aja, mereka nggak melakoni sungguh2( para co worker ku di cafe, bok, males2nya pol! bule2 semua lho). Kalo sama2 misalnya orang2 indo mengeyam pendidikan disini dan diberi kesempatan utk bekerja disini sesuai dgn pendidikan disini, gue percaya tuh para bule habis nggak ada apa2nya deh…

Bule yg brengsek juga banyak…
Tergiur punya cowok bule yg romantis, pinter ngrayu, bermata biru dan berbulu( hiii…apa hubungannya?), nggak sedikit cewek2 indo yg jadi korban…
Padahal mereka( para bule) tuh maunya cuman" ngicipi" gimana asian taste…nggak worty-lah kita ikut begituan…one night stand just for fun…
belom lagi paling sebel kalo yg tua2 keladi..udah usia diatas 50 tapi lirikannya cewek asia yg masih 20-an…( gue pribadi banyak cerita gini yg menimpa gue snediri…sampe sebel, emang gue kayak wajah tante2…enak aja!). Soalnya, cewek asia tuh stempelnya" murahan"…alias mereka banyak yg mau ama bule, nggak peduli dari status apa, usia berapa, karena kadang mereka  mo cari status legal disini…jadinya kita2 yg murni  dari motif begitu kena getahnya juga…

omongan lain…soal merk..
hebatnya tuh orang2 indo walaupun disini kerja kuli, mereka tetap nggak mau kalah ama yg namanya merk( nyindir maksunya)..kerja boleh dipabrik, but belanjaan merk banana republik- atau tas LV, mobil Lexus( honda nggak payu)…gimana nggak hebat? America, man!
Bingung nggak sih? apa yg dicari? harga diri? gaya hidup modern yg konsumtif?
kalo gue, medingan buat sekolah deh…cari ilmu daripada buat pamer nggak yg nggak ada juntrungannya begitu..

So my friends,
American dreams jgn bikin kita silau ama gemerlapnya dunia dan jadi lupa diri..
kalo sekarang, gue banyak mikir kalo masing2 ada kelebihan and kekurangannya… orang amrik bukan mereka lebih top dari kita…justru kita, kalo dari indo, lebih kaya dlm hal budaya daripada mereka…dindo aja, di pulau jawa aja, lain daerah udah lain adat and logat..makanan kita juga jauhhh banyak bergam dari mereka yg cuman bread-egg-cheese-mustrad-mayo-and ketchup….
Bersyukurlah dimanapun kita berada…

Bok!
gue lagi suntuk nih..diluar lagi hujan es- kemaren sih salju- and pagi2 dah berisik bunyi" tuk…tik…tuk.." dijendela…taunya diluar jendela udah menumpuk tuh es n salju..anyway…ngelantur jadinya…suntuknya bukan krn weather..but suntuknya gara2 paper assignement yg bikin puyeng…hh..
ini my english class ama my prof sing into banget science, and dia milih topik about extraterrestrial life- or life outside our earth- buat my next paper.
Science? who care? hehehehe…iyalah…gue paling buta ama yg begituan…buntutnya gue harus baca tuh artikel 9 pages sambil garuk2 kepala ama ngemil apa aja ngilangin stress..

Gambatte Kudasai!!

Have I told you that I HATE to go dentist?

Repeat it again…I hate to go to dentist!!!

today I had my appointment regarding my " root canal" issue..It’s been a long period time since I had my tooth problem( 1 yr ago, I guess..) but I’m not finishing it yet. You know, in states,scheduling doctor appointment can take you weeks or months to get fill in, it’s not like in Indonesia that you just make a phone call in the morning and in the afternoon or evening you already reserved.

I got this tooth problem which is " akut" decay that cause my tooth losing its nerve, so basically it’s dead already. Usually, doctor will take it off coz there is no funtional use there. But since pulling out tooth can cause major effects and shape of your teeth in general, nowadays , with high tech improvement  everything can  be fixed.

Talking to my case, I choose this University Pennsylvania Dental School as my place because my old roommate  had it there before. She recommended this doctor which was very nice and patient.
And I went there. Fyi, this is a dental school for dental student who need to get practice before they graduate and they have their senior doctors as their mentors.
I confessed to be very picky choosing my dentist because I knew the dental care is something that really vital, besides money issue and it’s gonna be for long period time.

Make a story short, I got a great doctor in when first I went there. He was a funny, patient, caring and gentle doctor as my roommate told me.  He’s  great.  Unfortunately, since  the process  for my tooth taking some times and I’ve been busy and this great doctor graduted already without finishing my final process, which is building up " crown" for my poor tooth. I tried to contact him, but he moved away to  new location 2 hrs driving from Philadelphia.

There was no other way to visit him there. So I just decided to continue my treatment in the same place, and of course, different doctor.
first, I got this young girl as my doctor. She tried to be nice and made me comfortable. She looked very confused and didn’t know what to do that made me even more nervous. She dropped some tools and keep played around with it- she said it was a new one and she never tried before- God! I just wanna jumped out and run away from my chair. Yes , I had a phobic toward dentist.
And she accidently cutted my tongue while she was cleaning my tooth. I didn’t realize it was bleeding because I got anestetic( is it right, Fandy? my future doctor?? hehe), and when I got home, still I spitted blood from my mouth. I checked it in the mirror, and there was a big hole beneath my tongue! I called the dental office and asked for different doctor.

Second, I had this replacement doctor, which was recommended by my first doctor- he said that this guy is a good student- so I trust him and chosed this young fella to be my next dentist.
He’s a serious one. He kept everything straight from the procedure and he forgot how to joke with his patient( or he can’t? ) which make me even more pressure with my phobic.
He doesn’t deal with any" soft feeling" for his patient pains. excuse me..helloo..kalian para calon dokter ya…make your patient feeling save and comfortable itu penting yooo..apalagi sing cengeng kayak gue ..

There is a requirement that I signed when I chosed this dental school, that the patient allowed for this medical students to do their research and examination whole teeth, not just only one that affected . It isn’t cheap either, since I don’t have any health insurance to cover my expenses. I spent almost $ 1200 already for fixing " 1 " tooth and did checked up as requirement. Gee…( Ndok, jangan berani2 ke US tanpa check up gigi lo, okey..liat pengalaman temenmu yg satu ini, tongpes cuman gara2 bayar dokter gigi..)

Today I told my doctor that I could not continue any further treatment after I finished my root canal, coz I couldn’t afford it without a health insurance( semua tabungan gue masuk sekolah and bayar living cost..apalagi sekarang kerja cuman parttime, mana ada duit bayarin ongkos betulin gigi yg katanya masih ada 2 lagi yg harus di benerin- tapi nggak emergency sekali sih..).
I didn’t know what was in his head, or he just in a bad mood, but since that, he became careless doing my tooth. it caused , again, my tongue get cutted when he losed control using his cleaning machine and some severe wounds in my mouth( I just realized when I checked in the mirror ).
when he cutted my tongue, I cried. Yes it was painful and also I felt that I was treated unfairly.I felt  as if that because I told him that I could not afford this treatment and he just changed he didn’t care anymore…. or it just my stupid nonsense feeling..I just can not help it. I scared to death everytime I go to dentist. He said sorry and paused a while until I calm down with my tears.

I promised myself not to go back there after I’m done with my rootcanal.

Just like a nightmare. It took me 3,5 hrs today. One more appointment and I’m done.

" keep on writing…keep on writing.." I murmured myself.

Got 4 hrs break before I start my second class, I decided to enjoy this sunny breezy day with a cup of starbucks coffe and stroller city view which not far away from my school.

Here I am, sitting in the bench on Logan Square park, with my barefoot feet stroking white sands- hey relax, I just took off my clogs and let my poor feet breathe for a while, ha ha..-, tune in myIpod to my new fave music( soundtrack movie" everything is illuminated’) and writing this blog!

At 8 am earlier, I had my ESL class ( yes my dear friends, one of the requirement that I should deal with after all this time..).
That was a medium size class, about 15 students, from all different countries.
I found out that I wasn’t the only Indonesian student in that class.
There was a girl, very young- compare with me-, looked freshly garduated from high school, and she was originally from Malang.
She sat beside me, and I didn’t realize that she was Indonesian ( I guess, the phrase" Don’t judge people from appearance’ hit me with the lesson, you can’t tell exactly where people come from till they speak up, or if you pretty smart, by the way they dressed up).
This girl just like an ordinary sweet asian girl, that nothing special in her pointed out that we’re from the same country.

It seemed would be an interestin class.
The teacher, an American Lady in her late fortys, appeared very nice person and patient.
She was excited finding out students in her class come from some rare countries, like Morocco, Cuba, Venezuella and rwanda.
I think Indonesian student is pretty common in ESL class in this school.
But she said something nice about Indonesian student( that she had before) that they’re smart and dilligent! I smiled.
She also said that many her Indonesian students had no last name or had only just one name( ha ha, fandy, don’t feel discourage,you’re not alone, bro!)

sense that I’m gonna like this class..

darn! I typed this blog already but somehow when I insert for image, it goes blank..ss…

anyway, I saw this warm, touchful movie that carries deep thought about how far your memories about life will affect you.." everything is illuminated" with star Elijah Wood. It’s independent movie, you know that kinda type film that you not see usually in big famous screen produced by Hollywood,but I can tell you, if you love something out of ordinary to watch, this one is perfect companion to grab.

I think it based on true story, about a young american jewish man,who got kinda unusual hobby( or profession?) collecting his family’ memories-photos, card-false teeth-handfuls of dirt- all sealed and keep mounted on wall. He seeks a more elusive memory as he’ll journey to the Ukraine to find the woman who saved his grandfather from Nazis in 1942.

It presented with interesting and surprisingly beautiful scenes, eastern european culture music which keep it more alive and playful( I said to myself, I’m sounding like those critical film review, haha..)

khat2 and Ndok…this one really highly recommended to see…first buat khat, tokoh utamanya ngingetin aku like you who appreciate and like collect items that hold some beautiful( and rare?) moments- kayak  my love letter from someone initial " Y" from my junior high school time- thanks sis for keeping that for me, LOL..maybe I can tell my story for my grandchildren later…hahaha..

and Ndok, insting fotographer lo bakalan mencuat deh liat beautiful views like in this movies..gue aja tambah kepengen belajar foto ni..

rek..HELP,HELP…
butuh advise kalian ni…masih ada kaitannya ama blog gue yg terakhir…ttg itu lho, cowok sing ngajakin ngedate tapi gue tolak dgn alasan profesionalisme kerja…kupikir dia dah menyerah…eh, ternyata nggak…kali ini  ngajakin keluar ( see movie) dgn alasan: "as FRIENDS"…no pressure..( but I said, you did already! )  GImanaaaa nih??

gue sih nggak menjawab(- habis sampe nggak tau mo ngomong apa, takut salah omong malah menyinggung perasaan-), trus,dia ngambil kesimpulan:" ya kalo gitu next week yuk kita keluar…"  hoaaaaaa…gakkkk mauuu!!!! help, help…

emang sih cowok ini , sebut aja " B",orangnya super friendly,womanizer(- dia tau gimana caranya ngomong ama cewek,he knows how to treat woman like a lady), dia temen baek ama arek2 tempat kerjaku( sing malah gue bikin tambah nggak enak hati karena arek2 suka ma dia), in his mid 40s( tapi funky and hip gitu,makanya dia nggak mau married, no komitment - buat apa married kalo cewek2 cuman dibuat kumpul aja banyak yg mau? ).

dia kan tinggalnya diseberang cafeku, jadi dia datang kalo pagi2 gue baru buka toko sewaktu masih sepi n ngajakin ngobrol….waduhh…rasane gue mo kabur, malah sewaktu dia ngajakin keluar lagi itu, in 10 minutes noone coming at my place, sampe gue berdoa dlm hati : Tuhann…kirim seseorang kek, selamatin gue dari orang ini….soale biasane kalo ada customer yg dateng, langsung break off the conversation atau gue bisa cari2 kesibukan gitu…untung nggak lama kemudian, Qing2- my coworker- dateng…phhhhwww….Thanks God, hear my prayer!!

gimana, gimana ni…susah juga…kenapa sih kok cowok suka mojokin cewek sampe harus berkata NO dgn bebal hati alias tanpa tedeng aling2 lagi? bukannya kalo dari pertama kita udah nunjukin nggak interest( dgn cara halus) udah cukup, alias terjemahan bebasnya LEAVE ME ALONE!???
soalnya kalo sampe tahap gitu, hubungan jadi berantakan, jadinya karena ditolak jadi sakit hati and jadi berubah sikap….apalagi kayak situasi gue kan gue kerja nglayani customer, kadang ada juga sing ngerjain gitu….rewel minta macem2 tapi nggak ngasih tip…padahal dulunya ya flirt2 gitu, tapi karena nggak gue tanggapin, jadine balas dendamnya gitu( trus sing mbencekno itu kan, gimanapun nyebelinnya customer, kita harus seramah mungkin nglayani mereka, ada sing komplain lewat email ke bosku juga lho kalo misale kita jutek nglayani mereka….)…Dongkolnya kebayang nggak sih?…kayaknya kita nggak punya choice gitu..

tolong ya rek…kasih masukan….gimana carane ngadapin orang sing bebal( atau mental baja?) kayak gitu..

XOXO

baru 2 hari lalu gue pos-in blog yg bikin heboh temen2 sekampung( yg emang asli satu kampung,juga, maksudnya….hehehehhe), ama komentar pro and kontra mereka…THANKS LOH, rek!! kalian emang supporter yg baek…huhehehhehe..

gue nggak mau pake english version buat blog kali ini, habisnya ini bakalan cerita ttg customer2 gue( fyi, gue kerja di lokal cafe shop dilingkungan orang2 yuppies- istilah amriknya borju- di philadelphia).
kenapa?
jawabannya : karena tuh, belakangan ini ada customer gue yg surf and dia juga ada di friendster juga, menemukan daku disiniiii…..maluuu dong kalo gue curhat2 diblog and dibaca ama orang yg taunya gue cuman dari tempat kerja doang…alasan profesionalisme gitu lho…hahahhahahah

okey…

ternyata, rek…dipikir2 kalo masih sorangan wae alias single, enak juga lho….
apalagi sbg cewek…hahahhahaha…

kalo disini kan, kalo ada interest, orang sini langsung aja ngomong face to face- mo nge date ama aku nggak?- gitu tawarannya…
nggak usah basa basi,atau proses berbelit2 gitu..
dalam 2 hari ini dah 2 cowok ngajakin gue ngedate, and dua orang lagi malu2 flirting gitu..( apa gara2 gue baru potong rambut ya, jadinya pasaran naik? huheheheheh…nggaklah..)
kalian2 yg mengenal gue dah bertahun2, kalian tau tho, kalo gue termasuk pemalu( yg malu2in?) kadang2…hahahhahah…

balik ke story utama…2 orang cowok yg pertama langsung nawarin to the point gitu, mau nggak keluar ama mereka…jawabanku klise aja" wah….gimana ya….prinsip gue sih and juga dari perusahaan, gue nggak  bisa ngedate ama customer sendiri- ( yg tentu aja hasil rekayasa gue 100 %) hehehhehe…" mereka cuman bilang" oohhh….I see…maybe, I should stop being a customer here,joke…hhahahahahaha" mereka fair kok…nggak ngotot nggilani gitu..
nggak menarik lah, soale nih 2 orang ini umurnya jauh diatasku…emohlah..yg satu pengangguran banyak acara karena ortu kaya, and satu lagi master engineering…nope!

trus…
2 cowok lagi..ehm..ehm…first, panggil aja "M " doctor-will-be soon….seumuran gue kayaknya,bald but cuteee,dark blue eyes ama senyum pepsodentnya nggak cuman bikin cewek aja( karena coworker gue yg gay juga mengakui) kesengsem..anaknya diem( atau cool? hehehehe, nggak jelas…), murah hati( karena selalu ngetip walau dia nggak beli sesuatu yg kita harus kerja extra bikin…you know…fancy drink gitu…), but he’s kinda short…paling lebih tinggi dari gue dikit..

trus yg satu lagi…kasih nama" E " gitu aja ya..kalo yg ini profesinya teacher( 7 grade? seumuran SMP atau SMA yaa…hmm..), trus summer ini dia nyambi jadi city guide tour..
tall, 6 feet something( 180-an centi kali), proporsional build, orangnya enak diajak omong…mungkin karena guru kali ya, jadinya lebih ngertiin orang…tampang sih,lumayan, nggak jelek and nggak cakep2 banget…diatas rata2 dikit lah..

so….apa yg gue tunggu? kalian pasti nanya gitu …

jujur aja…sekarang ni, gue nggak jamannya ngedate just for fun lagi…dulu iya…sekarang mungkin lebih serius gitu ya…gue nggak mau nih ngedate kalo tau bakalannya itu bukan yg gue cari…buat apa sih…kesenangan sesaat, abis gitu bubaran, patah hati lagi …yaahh..

cuman satu syarat terpenting : seiman.
That’s it.

biarin deh gue dianggap fanatik or whatever…tapi emang itu yg terpenting…gimana bisa komunikasi kalo masalah paling mendasar dlm membina hubungan nggak sejalan pandangannya?
kayak cari jarum dlm jerami? Do I miss the train here? NOPE….
iyaa….makanya,hoiiii…single, siapa takut??

love you all….