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darn! I typed this blog already but somehow when I insert for image, it goes blank..ss…

anyway, I saw this warm, touchful movie that carries deep thought about how far your memories about life will affect you.." everything is illuminated" with star Elijah Wood. It’s independent movie, you know that kinda type film that you not see usually in big famous screen produced by Hollywood,but I can tell you, if you love something out of ordinary to watch, this one is perfect companion to grab.

I think it based on true story, about a young american jewish man,who got kinda unusual hobby( or profession?) collecting his family’ memories-photos, card-false teeth-handfuls of dirt- all sealed and keep mounted on wall. He seeks a more elusive memory as he’ll journey to the Ukraine to find the woman who saved his grandfather from Nazis in 1942.

It presented with interesting and surprisingly beautiful scenes, eastern european culture music which keep it more alive and playful( I said to myself, I’m sounding like those critical film review, haha..)

khat2 and Ndok…this one really highly recommended to see…first buat khat, tokoh utamanya ngingetin aku like you who appreciate and like collect items that hold some beautiful( and rare?) moments- kayak  my love letter from someone initial " Y" from my junior high school time- thanks sis for keeping that for me, LOL..maybe I can tell my story for my grandchildren later…hahaha..

and Ndok, insting fotographer lo bakalan mencuat deh liat beautiful views like in this movies..gue aja tambah kepengen belajar foto ni..

rek..HELP,HELP…
butuh advise kalian ni…masih ada kaitannya ama blog gue yg terakhir…ttg itu lho, cowok sing ngajakin ngedate tapi gue tolak dgn alasan profesionalisme kerja…kupikir dia dah menyerah…eh, ternyata nggak…kali ini  ngajakin keluar ( see movie) dgn alasan: "as FRIENDS"…no pressure..( but I said, you did already! )  GImanaaaa nih??

gue sih nggak menjawab(- habis sampe nggak tau mo ngomong apa, takut salah omong malah menyinggung perasaan-), trus,dia ngambil kesimpulan:" ya kalo gitu next week yuk kita keluar…"  hoaaaaaa…gakkkk mauuu!!!! help, help…

emang sih cowok ini , sebut aja " B",orangnya super friendly,womanizer(- dia tau gimana caranya ngomong ama cewek,he knows how to treat woman like a lady), dia temen baek ama arek2 tempat kerjaku( sing malah gue bikin tambah nggak enak hati karena arek2 suka ma dia), in his mid 40s( tapi funky and hip gitu,makanya dia nggak mau married, no komitment - buat apa married kalo cewek2 cuman dibuat kumpul aja banyak yg mau? ).

dia kan tinggalnya diseberang cafeku, jadi dia datang kalo pagi2 gue baru buka toko sewaktu masih sepi n ngajakin ngobrol….waduhh…rasane gue mo kabur, malah sewaktu dia ngajakin keluar lagi itu, in 10 minutes noone coming at my place, sampe gue berdoa dlm hati : Tuhann…kirim seseorang kek, selamatin gue dari orang ini….soale biasane kalo ada customer yg dateng, langsung break off the conversation atau gue bisa cari2 kesibukan gitu…untung nggak lama kemudian, Qing2- my coworker- dateng…phhhhwww….Thanks God, hear my prayer!!

gimana, gimana ni…susah juga…kenapa sih kok cowok suka mojokin cewek sampe harus berkata NO dgn bebal hati alias tanpa tedeng aling2 lagi? bukannya kalo dari pertama kita udah nunjukin nggak interest( dgn cara halus) udah cukup, alias terjemahan bebasnya LEAVE ME ALONE!???
soalnya kalo sampe tahap gitu, hubungan jadi berantakan, jadinya karena ditolak jadi sakit hati and jadi berubah sikap….apalagi kayak situasi gue kan gue kerja nglayani customer, kadang ada juga sing ngerjain gitu….rewel minta macem2 tapi nggak ngasih tip…padahal dulunya ya flirt2 gitu, tapi karena nggak gue tanggapin, jadine balas dendamnya gitu( trus sing mbencekno itu kan, gimanapun nyebelinnya customer, kita harus seramah mungkin nglayani mereka, ada sing komplain lewat email ke bosku juga lho kalo misale kita jutek nglayani mereka….)…Dongkolnya kebayang nggak sih?…kayaknya kita nggak punya choice gitu..

tolong ya rek…kasih masukan….gimana carane ngadapin orang sing bebal( atau mental baja?) kayak gitu..

XOXO

baru 2 hari lalu gue pos-in blog yg bikin heboh temen2 sekampung( yg emang asli satu kampung,juga, maksudnya….hehehehhe), ama komentar pro and kontra mereka…THANKS LOH, rek!! kalian emang supporter yg baek…huhehehhehe..

gue nggak mau pake english version buat blog kali ini, habisnya ini bakalan cerita ttg customer2 gue( fyi, gue kerja di lokal cafe shop dilingkungan orang2 yuppies- istilah amriknya borju- di philadelphia).
kenapa?
jawabannya : karena tuh, belakangan ini ada customer gue yg surf and dia juga ada di friendster juga, menemukan daku disiniiii…..maluuu dong kalo gue curhat2 diblog and dibaca ama orang yg taunya gue cuman dari tempat kerja doang…alasan profesionalisme gitu lho…hahahhahahah

okey…

ternyata, rek…dipikir2 kalo masih sorangan wae alias single, enak juga lho….
apalagi sbg cewek…hahahhahaha…

kalo disini kan, kalo ada interest, orang sini langsung aja ngomong face to face- mo nge date ama aku nggak?- gitu tawarannya…
nggak usah basa basi,atau proses berbelit2 gitu..
dalam 2 hari ini dah 2 cowok ngajakin gue ngedate, and dua orang lagi malu2 flirting gitu..( apa gara2 gue baru potong rambut ya, jadinya pasaran naik? huheheheheh…nggaklah..)
kalian2 yg mengenal gue dah bertahun2, kalian tau tho, kalo gue termasuk pemalu( yg malu2in?) kadang2…hahahhahah…

balik ke story utama…2 orang cowok yg pertama langsung nawarin to the point gitu, mau nggak keluar ama mereka…jawabanku klise aja" wah….gimana ya….prinsip gue sih and juga dari perusahaan, gue nggak  bisa ngedate ama customer sendiri- ( yg tentu aja hasil rekayasa gue 100 %) hehehhehe…" mereka cuman bilang" oohhh….I see…maybe, I should stop being a customer here,joke…hhahahahahaha" mereka fair kok…nggak ngotot nggilani gitu..
nggak menarik lah, soale nih 2 orang ini umurnya jauh diatasku…emohlah..yg satu pengangguran banyak acara karena ortu kaya, and satu lagi master engineering…nope!

trus…
2 cowok lagi..ehm..ehm…first, panggil aja "M " doctor-will-be soon….seumuran gue kayaknya,bald but cuteee,dark blue eyes ama senyum pepsodentnya nggak cuman bikin cewek aja( karena coworker gue yg gay juga mengakui) kesengsem..anaknya diem( atau cool? hehehehe, nggak jelas…), murah hati( karena selalu ngetip walau dia nggak beli sesuatu yg kita harus kerja extra bikin…you know…fancy drink gitu…), but he’s kinda short…paling lebih tinggi dari gue dikit..

trus yg satu lagi…kasih nama" E " gitu aja ya..kalo yg ini profesinya teacher( 7 grade? seumuran SMP atau SMA yaa…hmm..), trus summer ini dia nyambi jadi city guide tour..
tall, 6 feet something( 180-an centi kali), proporsional build, orangnya enak diajak omong…mungkin karena guru kali ya, jadinya lebih ngertiin orang…tampang sih,lumayan, nggak jelek and nggak cakep2 banget…diatas rata2 dikit lah..

so….apa yg gue tunggu? kalian pasti nanya gitu …

jujur aja…sekarang ni, gue nggak jamannya ngedate just for fun lagi…dulu iya…sekarang mungkin lebih serius gitu ya…gue nggak mau nih ngedate kalo tau bakalannya itu bukan yg gue cari…buat apa sih…kesenangan sesaat, abis gitu bubaran, patah hati lagi …yaahh..

cuman satu syarat terpenting : seiman.
That’s it.

biarin deh gue dianggap fanatik or whatever…tapi emang itu yg terpenting…gimana bisa komunikasi kalo masalah paling mendasar dlm membina hubungan nggak sejalan pandangannya?
kayak cari jarum dlm jerami? Do I miss the train here? NOPE….
iyaa….makanya,hoiiii…single, siapa takut??

love you all….

                          gue mikir bolak balik choosing this subject as my next blog…bukan apa sih…since " LOVE STORY" is always something that people really want to hear and expect magically hapenned in our lifes…we always get excited to want to know what is the romantic love story that people can pass it on…
because we, human, designed to be loved and to love…we can’t live without love- whatever it forms,your parents’ love, your friends’ love or love between a man and a woman-…we need love!

pagi ini di gereja,gue ditodong pertanyaan klasik( coz I hear it thousands times!!! trust me..)ama seorang ibu," so,when do you think you wanna get married and have kids? have u ever think about it? "
I just politely answered and smiling," I’m taking my time for that…." and she continued " don’t get rush, honey,I remembered that you are in your late twenties, right? but, look at me, I started married and have kids at my forties…and also, your baby face(- hey, she truly said this part! LOL) make people guessing that you’re still in early twenties…"

Hhhhhh…I’m taking a deep breath..

nggak gampang jadi cewek single and hip! hahahhaha…nggak bisa dihitung deh, berapa banyak orang yg tanya,kok masih single terus sih? say it, dari my own family( like everytime my mom calls back to Indonesia, my aunties always asking( and show their concerns), lia udah punya pacar belom?…also my from my workplace, my coworker( she’s from China, age around 40’s,she’s really sweet and love me..),her name is Qing2…selalu tanya " Liaaa..( with her  thick Chinese aksen)…give me the list, what kind of man that you’re looking for, I’ll help you find one…do you want Indonesian, American, or Chinese?…" and I always says" Qing2…I’m fine…thanks for your offer.."

I’m not the only one who struggle about being single in this age…I know some of my dear friends also…no matter, they’re in US or in Indonesia..
Di indonesia, it must be very hard for our culture, accept that you’re a girl or have a daughter, in her late twenties and not married yet…orang bilang" hati2..ntar jadi perawan tua, lo!…jgn terlalu pilih2…seadanya ajalah..dijalani dulu, tresno jalaran soko kulino(- eh bener nggak, pepatah jawa kuno ini, tolong diralat kalo salah ya..heheheh)"
Thanks to emansipasi wanita, yg sekarang cewek nggak cuman ditakdirkan nunggu jodoh, aksesoris suami and kerja didapur ( please don’t get me wrong,..I’m not against it, I think it’s very noble also being a housewife and takecare your family). I just thinking that also a lot of things that we can do-as single women- when still waiting our time finding Mr. Right, enjoying ourselves and be happy with it.

It’s not my time yet..

waiting and waiting…and pray..

sebagai orang kristen, yg mungkin dianggap nggak masuk akal and nuts, gue ngerasa peace and confident, coz Jesus has promise for you and for me…that He won’t let you down…He knows the desire in your heart..if He can fulfill small things in my life, so He even cares more about my big matter like my soulmate…Doesn’t He?
buat temen2 gue yg masih single fighter…Don’t be discouraged and have a big heart…He knows the best for you..Can’t wait to have that moment and I’ll share it with you…

ps: kemaren gue liat vcd " IF ONLY" drama romance…Jennifer Love Hewitt ..the story about how to love someone like there was no tomorrow…romantis sih, gue sampe nangis( jgn diketawain yo…)aww…it really touched my heart!