Kuciwaa..
hey guys..
baru gue baca blog khat2 ttg nasib kita sing sama…heraaan deh…kok mesti mirip2 gitu…nggak cuman sekali dua kali doang, tapi berkali2!! It’s amazing…I’m sure that He has something in store for us, khat..
Kemaren gue terima surat pernyataan dari Temple Univ ttg aplikasi gue ketolak alias gue nggak bisa jadi student disitu. Lemes deh …gak percaya sih..Gue planning mo transfer fall 
2007 kesitu krn emang Temple terkenal bagus utk art programnya..Jadi 2 bulan sebelom deadline, gue dah persiapin bikin portfolio and berkas2 yg diperlukan..Tapi emang Tuhan punya rencana lain yg lebih baik buat gue…sebagaimana mungkin kita berusaha tapi bukan jalan kita, tetap nggak isa kita meraihnya…
Rek, kalo dipikir secara logika, nggak masuk akal…habisnya, my GPA( atau IP-) berturut2 : 4 ( bukan pamer sih). Semua design and drawing artwork gue mostly "A".. so what is the requirements that I don’t meet from all those?
Bener, pertama gue shock and surprise..habis setahuku, masuk ke Temple bukannya "super susah"…bisa dibilang Temple itu school utk yg menengah keatas lah utk kemampuan studentnya, bukan yg top peringkat atas kayak Rhode Island School of Design( semacam Yale-nya design di east coast sini).Jadi gue pretty much sure, kalo kemampuan gue bisa lulus, kalaupun nggak masuk beasiswa, tapi 99% yakin keterima.
But God has another plans…maybe He know what my motives and my shortcoming..also my pride…mungkin gue yg takabur and sombong, ngerasa kalo gue bisa melakukan ini semua tanpa tanya Dia, apa yg Dia mau dari gue..
and He did it!!
He just cut down everything no matter how much efforts that I put for this school…Dari pertama proses aplikasinya banyak bermasalah…dari transcripku yg ilang di mail nggak tau kemana…trus.file portfolioku yg nggak bisa dibuka 2 hari sebelom deadline so I had to do all over again…trus minta transcript asli dari Petra Univ 5 hari sebelum deadline…pokoknya nggak mulus and made me so frustrated!
I guess He showed me pretty much clear about His decision in my life. but I just ignore Him and thought that I can handle it by myself.
He got me there!
Anyway…tentu aja kecewa and feeling down are the natural things that I felt as human being with full of expectation for this…I’ve been work out of my butt for this, but yet,I failed.
Tuhan kasih gue pelajaran jitu di situasi ini…without Him, I’m nothing…
Gue inget kisah bible ttg Joseph( Yusuf) yg lagi dicobai diMesir…dari dijual oleh saudara2nya sendiri jadi budak di Mesir sampai akhirnya diangkat jadi orang kedua setelah Pharaoh, and he said that God working from all of his trial become his victory. What an encouragement!
Another story, Queen Esther, dibawa utk jadi selir raja sampai dpt favor in King’s eyes and save her people.
Khat2…never give up our dreams…bring them in prayer, because He give us this desires in out heart…according His purposes..
